EDITED:  pictures from BOWCRAFT AMUSEMENT PARK

<starting from the back left: my very own munchkin, the birthday boy - Greggy/ from left/ carlito, and ryan>

check out the left side of the pic - that ride went pretty high up!  I'M A PROUD PARENT!

THE HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY!

 

currently: eating SpongeBob square pants cereal <it's really good!!>

Today, I'm heading to Scotchplains to take my little munchkin to the Bowcraft Amusement Park for Greggy's Birthday Party!  The weather was so nice yesterday and today!

So, WHAT HAVE I BEEN UP TO???

Let's start with FRIDAY, girls' night out + BAR hopping = getting CrUnKeD!! we ended up at a lounge, BLURR <we had the choice of going there or Envy>  The night didn't last too long because Judy was really messed up!!  It was a suprise to see that someone there with his girl, and no it wasn't Jeff.. hahahahaha  If you're a close friend you'd know who I'm talking about, otherwise it's none of your business. 

SATURDAY, Rian's barbecue at Bergenfield.  Izaiah and Marcus look soOo cute playing together.  It sucked that I wasn't able to bring my digital camera. 

<Rian, send those pictures over!!  puh-puh please!!! > 

Advance Happy Birthday ADAM!! Drink up all the Hennessy, Bacardi 151 and Heinekien as a chaser, on a High/Low card game and follow it up with an ice cream cake... you're more than likely to puke it all out!! hahaha

AFTER PARTY at Jade Terrance for Rae and Joel's Birthday!  Again, saw a lot of people I haven't seen in a long time... What's really good? 

<Stranger, he's doing good! thanks for asking..>

The quality of your life is measured by the little things.

Barbara Braham

 

mood:   

I just got home not too long ago from Springfield.  Izaiah had a 104 fever last night so I took him to his doctor which is also his godmother and it turns out he has an ear infection and sore throat.  I hate seeing my son sick and I don't think any mother would like seeing their child sick.  I would prefer to be sick instead of him cause I can't stand what he has to go through!  I called out of work today and I'm not pleased nor happy about going back I would rather stay at home with zai.  At least I know if he's improving or getting worse.  I got him his medicine so hopefully he'll recover in no time. 

SoOo, moving onto other things.. I'm stressed! so stressed out that I feel like I'm about to loose it!  I have so much to take care off and so little time to do it.  I'm not even procrastinating just feel deprived from getting it done because other issues seem to just pop-up out of no where...  Life simply offer you situations that makes it harder for you to deal with... a constant challege, a hurdle to overcome... for someone like me, life doesn't seem to get any easier or better.. does it?  I'm trying to stay positive and focus on the most important things, but some people just doesn't understand it so instead they make it harder for me to get by life.  I feel bad that I haven't been in touch, I've been M.I.A. = missing in action but as they all should know that I have more important priorities to take care off besides them, my friends.  It's not intentional that I don't call to keep in touch or chill, I just have a lot of things to deal with at the moment.  I'm going back to school next week and then I'll be really out of the scene.  so sorry!  I have a few months left to graduate nursing and I'm trying to keep a good standing point with my GPA.  It'll be a step away from achieving my ultimate goal, which is to provide for Izaiah with no struggle.  Hopefully soon enough I'll be able to provide him with everything and anything he needs without me struggling to give it.  It's just ashame and it breaks my heart every time I think about it, he needs is his father to be around and that I think it's difficult to give.  I mean he's around and all but not enough as he should.  I really can't force him to be around more.  He really needs to get his act together before it's too late!  Men can't live with them and can't live without them!!! but pshh.. who needs them anyway!! lol

Guys are like stars, there are so many to pick from, but only one can make all your dreams come true! 

I feel so alone but yet so proud that I'm able to manage to make ends meet for zai and I.  I know that everything happens for a reason and all I really need to know is that everything will work out for the best and we'll be alright in the end.  Back to work for me in a few hours so I'm going to bed!

here's a picture of my munchkin taken in california, on may 2003

isn't he just adorable?

mood: 

i wish i knew the words to say to express the way i feel.  So u'd understand how i truly feel!

love hurts...

sometimes love can feel

like the closest thing to heaven

sometimes love can feel

like you've been run over by a car

yes it can it's the strangest thing i know

make you feel warm when you feel cold

and if you down on happiness

you better get used to the taste of sadness

cause love can sure hurt sometimes

love hurts and it don't

love don't always work

love ain't all it seems

it feels good but it stings

love hurts and it don't

some people will tell you

it's the best thing for the heart

yes they will what they fail to tell you

it can tear you life apart

but you know it's a sweet as summer rain

but it can hit you like a train

fill your heart with pain

fill your heart with pain

ooh everybody sing, everybody sing

love hurts and it don't

love don't always work

love ain't all it seems

it feels good but it stings

love hurts and it don't

when you know that you're alive

cause you feel so much pain

when you feel you can't survive

but you make it anyway

when it feels too good to stop

but it hurts too much to stay

then you know, yes you know

you gotta know love hurts

it hurts and it don't

love hurts and it don't

love don't always work

love ain't all it seems

it feels good but it stings

love hurts and it don't......

mood: 

Love is something i can't define

I must use my heart and mind.

Could this be a dream?

It couldn't mean what it seems.

I broke your heart and left it torn apart.

clueless to what went out of place

 I'm so devasted, that tears began to roll down my face.

What did I do?  Where did I go wrong? 

I looked around and now you're gone!

I gave you a key to my heart,

cause I knew you would love me,

but I shut the door all suddenly

felt scared that I won't be able to give you my all

And my all is what you deserve,

So, I'm sorry that I  just decided to head straight for the curve.

I didn't know what to do and where to go,

and now I lost a love that I'll never get to know.

 

when it comes down to it, we all just want to be loved! (i guess you're right! a love like yours is too much for me to handle!)

 

mood: 

I was doing my monthly room rearrangement and I came across an amusing piece of paper which really made my day..

A GIRL'S DREAM HOTEL

A group of girlfriends are on vacation when they see a 5 story hotel with a sign that reads:  "For Women ONLY."  Since they are without their boyfriends and husbands, they decide to go in.

The bouncer, a very attractive guy, explains to them how it works, "We have 5 floors, and once you find what you are looking for, you can stay there.  It's easy to decide since each floor has a sign telling you what's inside."

So they start going up and on the first floor the sign reads:  "All the men on this floor are short and plain."  The friends laugh and without hesitation move on to the next floor.

The sign on the second floor reads:  "All the men here are short and handsome."  Still, this isn't good enough, so the friends continue on up.

They reach the third floor and the sign reads:  "All the men here are tall and plain." They still want to do better, and so, knowing there are still two floors left, they continued on up.

On the fourth floor, the sign is perfect:  "All the men here are tall and handsome."  The women get all excited and are going in when they realize that there is still one floor left. 

Wondering what they are missing, they head on up to the fifth floor.  There they find a sign that reads:  "There are no men here.  This floor was built only to prove that there is no way to please a woman,"    hahahaha.. I'm laughing at the fact that its TRUE! 

 

currently:  the weather sucks!!

feeling: 

Life isn't about keeping score.  It's not about how many people call you and it's not about who you've dated, are dating or haven't dated at all.  It isn't about who you've kissed, what sport you play, or which guy or girl likes you.  It's not about your shoes or your hair or the color of your skin or where you live or go to school.  Life isn't about if you have lots of friends, or if you are alone, and it's not about how accepted or unaccepted you are.  Life isn't about that.

But life is about who you love and who you hurt.  It's about how you feel about yourself.  It's about trust, happiness and compassion.  It's about sticking up for your friends and replacing inner hate with love.  Life is about avoiding jeolousy, overcoming ignorance and building confidence.  It's about what you say and what you mean.  It's about seeing people for who they are and not what they have.  Most of all, it is choosing your life to touch someone else's in a way that could never have achieved otherwise.  These choices are what life is about.

This is in relation to what happen for the last two days..it's sad how it all came about..I feel pitty for the girl that talked so much ish.. She felt so much jeolousy and hate for others that she attempted to ruin not one but a few people's lives just for a few months of pleasure knowing that she's merely not the only one unhappy. 

For this greed, she has yet to feel the loneliness in her life and what it's all about.  Loneliness is a cruel thing to experience and I wouldn't wish it on her or anyone...