LOVE is not blind – it sees more and not less, but because it sees more it is willing to see less.

-Will Moss-

I’m lost for words…  I feel like a failure!

Only if I knew how to be emotionaly strong and smart like you I wouldn’t be in this predicament.

Makes me wonder what values am I truly practicing?

I’m Lost.

One of the greatest rewards I can ever get from working at the hospital is when a patient  pays you a visit with fresh baked chocolate-almond cookies…  

Through out my whole life all I’ve ever heard are promises.  “Can you do this for me and I promise I’ll do that for you later…” Or the famous, “Can you lend me some money and I’ll pay you back later?!”  on and on and on….

Heard so many promises that one will do or refrain from doing something, and all we get is, “Sorry this and sorry that…It won’t happen again!”.  I suppose promises are made to be broken.  It’s makes it so difficult to understand after all the promises that’s been broken how we are still able to find a way to believe that one will keep their word.  Why make them if you can’t keep them?  m’I the type of person that’s so easy to manipulate because it’s in my nature to care and be nice to someone regardless who they may be?  Are people using the word promise as a bargaining chip to get what they want first and never have to give anything back for it?  For those that don’t keep their promises, does your conscious even bother you?  And for those that wait for something to happen, why wait so long?  Why do I keep making the same mistake of having to believe someone that I know will not even keep their end of the bargain? 

Confusing and so frustrating…

Yet, I feel a little satisfied to know that I’m not selfish. 

It’s always nice to wake up in the morning to find the love of your life singing Happy Mother’s Day to the birthday song.  One of the things I learned from my mom is to get all the advice you can and be wise the rest of your life.

Happy Mother’s Day Mom-  Thank you!  All that I am or hope to be, I owe to you…

Happy Mother’s Day to all the Mothers who make things possible. 

A lot of girls grow up thinking that a Prince Charming roams the skies and the plains just waiting for that special moment to zoom into their lives, snatch them up and carry them away from a world of shrouded gloom to one of white, wedded bliss.  Yet, it’s so hard to believe that guys feel the same way, well except for the snatching and carrying part.  I’m sure they wouldn’t feel so manly about it if they had to be carried by a Princess.  

After having spoken to a friend, only now I realize guys get as vulnerable as us girls get.  Only they refuse to show their true feeling for they will be consider weak.  But with all honesty, it takes much more courage and strength to show and admit your true feelings.

For that my friend I admire you…

We all make them.  Sometimes, if we’re lucky an eraser will do the trick and we can rub it across the page and all that is left is our careless mess is a hardly noticeable smudge.  But some mistakes can’t be erased.  No matter how old or young we are.  Even imagination is powerless.

Toughest lesson I learned that life doesn’t come with erasers. 

Just found out two days ago, my co-worker got admitted in ICU (Intensive Care Unit) after being in a motorcycle accident.  A car stopped at the red light and from what I hear, he didn’t break on time that he flew over the car.  So much for wanting a bike.  I guess I’ll just have to dream on it.  But then again it doesn’t hurt to take a class to know how to ride.  Right?

Someone ask, “Why is it so easy to fall in love and so hard to fall out of love?”

I’ve been in that road before and I found myself asking almost nearly the same question, “Why does love feel so good, but hurt so bad?”

Being in so many different relationship and at times doing it for the wrong reason, I stumble to the answer itself but merely learning it the hard way.  I don’t regret it, but definitely won’t forget it.  I know the experience isn’t the same but the concept of it all is.. “You get hurt, but you’ll learn to love again.. only time will let it heal!”

Just a thought for you to consider, in my understanding.  When falling in love you give yourself freely so you can experience how good it feels!  In the other hand, falling out of love is so much harder because you simply can’t let go how good it felt.  I know it easy to say but so much harder to do when you’re in pain,  but you need to Stand Tall!  Love hurts and feels good because it wants to remind you things that shouldn’t be forgotten.  Hopefully from being hurt there is a lesson to be learned.  I know a lot of your friends tell you what you don’t want to hear including me, but know it’s only because we care.  You really are the only one who can get yourself out of this!  You’re still young, so don’t shut out the opportunities you can have with someone who is more than willing to try and treat you good.  But don’t forget when you do proceed, take it with caution and hopefully you can remind yourself of that wonderful and horrible feeling you felt and influence you to can change yourself somehow so you can be a better person to yourself and your significant other.  Patience is everything my dear.  It’s your choice to learn what needs to be learned.  Keeping things in mind only makes you be considerate of yourself and others. 

Live your life freely and move on.. 

I only hope these words of encouragement will enlighten you. 

HAPPY CINCO DE MAYO!

Working the double today.. 

First off to VESTA  390 8th Avenue
(bet 29th and 30th Streets)
New York NY 10001

then to JCMC..

” It’s not about what you know.. it’s about who you know!” 

sad to say, but very true!

I never realized how hard it was to stay away from Xanga.  They’re right, saying goodbye is always the hardest thing… but it’s good to be back. 

We are selfish when we are exclusively or predominantly concerned with the good for ourselves.  We are altruistic when we are exclusively or predominantly concerned with the good of others…

“An advice to those who are about to begin, in earnest, the journey of life is to take their heart in one hand and a club in the other..” 

You give your hand to me
And then you say hello
and I can hardly speak
My heart is beating so
And anyone can tell
You think you know me well
Well, you don’t know me

No, you don’t know the one
Who dreams of you at night
And longs to kiss your lips
And longs to hold you tight
Oh I’m just a friend
That’s all I’ve ever been
‘Cause you don’t know me

For I never knew
The art of making love
Though my heart aches
With love for you
Afraid and shy
I let my chance go by
A chance that you might
love me too

You give your hand to me
And then you say good-bye
I watch you walk away
Beside the lucky girl
Oh you’ll never know
The one who loves you so
Well, you don’t know me

For I never knew
The art of making love
Though my heart aches
With love for you
Afraid and shy
I let my chance go by
A chance that you might
love me too

You give your hand to me
And then you say good-bye
I watch you walk away
Beside the lucky girl
Oh you’ll never know
The one who loves you so
You don’t know me
You never know
The one who loves you so

Well… you don’t know me

GOOD BYE XANGA..